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Well I did my first proper talk today with Charlie at Fusion and I had to do the main message. Praise the Lord i was well nervous and it was short but i really think they understood the message and the regualr chatterboxes who hate the talks respected me enough to listen. I really to praise God cos i couldnt have done that on my own strength. I only got stuttery in one bit which is amazing!! (oh yea and i need to thank Gavin Calver as i stole his talk!!! )
November 11th, 2006
November 10th, 2006
So Im just finishing my second week back since Half term and its been most interesting. I am to move in my new home soon as the couples daughter who i shall be replacing (fools your getting freedom!!!) has just gotten married and will be moving into her new home soon. So just waiting for that. I now have a mentor who is lovely. And things in my timetable are really busying up. I have hardly any free evenings now so i dont sit round bored too often!! Im begining to get more aqquainted with the estate and its ways (that sounds stupid but meh) The drop-in session was interesting yesterday. I really thought it was going to all kick off with some of the gang members who wasnt allowed to come in. But daphne (works with the gangs) handled it well and it wasnt as scary as i thought it would be!! The gang members couldnt believe that we volenteer to run the drop in for them. And that me and charlie even pay (well others pay) for us to do. Had a chat to one guy who i think wants to volenteer for us and take a gap year during uni which i explained is what i did. Then found out we're doing/did the same degree course. So he consequentially tried to get me to do an essay for him!
Church is good and i enjoy it and the the people are really nice though ill be sad to leave living there.
I've got a few things i would like people to pray for if thats alright?
. Pray for the estate as people are starting to be moved which is affecting the work there with numbers etc
. Pray for Nick and helen russel who live on the estate and the church HolySpirit.
. Pray for Gang time on a fridays. The gang want to use the dropin on a friday but this will mean having to intergrate the two gangs the white gang and black gang which could kick off.
. A kid we work with and her family and friends on the estate who has been targeted recently by a somalian gang.
. For me as i try to get through this with out feeling homesick!!
. For YFC as it continues its work but also is desperate for volenteers in the estate projects.
. The church youthgroups we help with as numbers have gone way down (not us!!)
. Funding
. That God will really work through our work!!!
Cheers!!
Lornaxx
Church is good and i enjoy it and the the people are really nice though ill be sad to leave living there.
I've got a few things i would like people to pray for if thats alright?
. Pray for the estate as people are starting to be moved which is affecting the work there with numbers etc
. Pray for Nick and helen russel who live on the estate and the church HolySpirit.
. Pray for Gang time on a fridays. The gang want to use the dropin on a friday but this will mean having to intergrate the two gangs the white gang and black gang which could kick off.
. A kid we work with and her family and friends on the estate who has been targeted recently by a somalian gang.
. For me as i try to get through this with out feeling homesick!!
. For YFC as it continues its work but also is desperate for volenteers in the estate projects.
. The church youthgroups we help with as numbers have gone way down (not us!!)
. Funding
. That God will really work through our work!!!
Cheers!!
Lornaxx
October 26th, 2006
Well its the blessed half term woohoo! i've been home and now sat in katies room blagging her internet, and milk and tea and food.... Its been well good to come back but made it more apparent that i do have to make a decision about next yea and that i really would like to come back to live with these guys. So im praying that God will show me what to do. If anyone would like to join in that would be most lovely!!
Start the cooking tomorrow - ARGHHHHHHHHH
Start the cooking tomorrow - ARGHHHHHHHHH
October 20th, 2006
I have given up trying to send the email as its decided not to work so here is my newsletter. Im really sorry about all the trouble!!
Well I tried to be all Professional and use publisher and stuff but after 2 weeks of trying to send it I have given up and you have a less pretty version of my update!
So after much planning, stressing and praying, I have finally reached my destination of Greenwich.
At the beginning of the month I went on a 2 week training course with other YFCone volunteers at Worcester University. This was an amazing time and I learnt so much about God and he really spoke to me in that time.
I have gone away to Greenwich with the lovely Charlie from near Dudley.
The centre I am in is great and the staff are Lovely. There is Hugh - the centre director and Julie who does the administration. Plus Kev a second year volunteer.
The centre is in Blackheath, situated above an alternative health place (The smells are interesting to say the least!)
GYFC works with many projects, so I’m doing a lot of varying things which could change by the next time im in contact!!
There are 3 areas;
Praxis– This is working in an area called the Ferrier estate. This is a quite rough estate, not the prettiest in the world.
There are a lot of projects in this area and im involved with three concerning the youth that live there. Firstly on a Wednesday we run a Rock Solid group in the church. Its very manic very noisy and crazy but a good laugh, we’ve been getting large numbers which they’re not used to but its good.
In the estate there is a square of shops, This is where the church is—Holy Spirit church and GYFC run something on a Thursday called the drop-in. This is an afterschool club, with a computer suite, films, playstation, pool, table football and games. This is really good fun (I’ve discovered that im playing games for a job—its brilliant!! Before you think im slacking I do more than that!)
And Finally on a Saturday, I am part of something called ‘Superkidz’ for under 11s.
This is crazy and has many songs with mad actions including the Okey Dokey Song which has been in my head for a week!
The other areas are; Engage and Impact
Impact is the schools work we do. Currently I go in on Tuesdays and do teacher support in RE lessons, but also go to the Eucharist and we shall be developing a lunch time club.
And Engage is the Work I do with my Church Placement. This is a Church called Eltham Green Church. Which is a ermm free evangelical and I work with their Junior Church Programme which is under 11s also.
There are also other programmes we help with ; Including an event called Fusion, which is lots of games food and a God slot which I thoroughly enjoyed as in combined some of my favorite things! There is also a children's club and an event called No compromise and the list of stuff is growing!!
For the first few weeks I lived with a lovely couple called Leslie and Elizabeth and now I have moved to live above the church for a month.
Thank-you so much those who have contributed to me financially it has been such a blessing and it has been absolutely amazing to see your generosity. Also thank you for those who have kept me in your prayers, a lot have been answered and I hope you can keep me there. Cheers for reading and God Bless, Lorna x
Well I tried to be all Professional and use publisher and stuff but after 2 weeks of trying to send it I have given up and you have a less pretty version of my update!
So after much planning, stressing and praying, I have finally reached my destination of Greenwich.
At the beginning of the month I went on a 2 week training course with other YFCone volunteers at Worcester University. This was an amazing time and I learnt so much about God and he really spoke to me in that time.
I have gone away to Greenwich with the lovely Charlie from near Dudley.
The centre I am in is great and the staff are Lovely. There is Hugh - the centre director and Julie who does the administration. Plus Kev a second year volunteer.
The centre is in Blackheath, situated above an alternative health place (The smells are interesting to say the least!)
GYFC works with many projects, so I’m doing a lot of varying things which could change by the next time im in contact!!
There are 3 areas;
Praxis– This is working in an area called the Ferrier estate. This is a quite rough estate, not the prettiest in the world.
There are a lot of projects in this area and im involved with three concerning the youth that live there. Firstly on a Wednesday we run a Rock Solid group in the church. Its very manic very noisy and crazy but a good laugh, we’ve been getting large numbers which they’re not used to but its good.
In the estate there is a square of shops, This is where the church is—Holy Spirit church and GYFC run something on a Thursday called the drop-in. This is an afterschool club, with a computer suite, films, playstation, pool, table football and games. This is really good fun (I’ve discovered that im playing games for a job—its brilliant!! Before you think im slacking I do more than that!)
And Finally on a Saturday, I am part of something called ‘Superkidz’ for under 11s.
This is crazy and has many songs with mad actions including the Okey Dokey Song which has been in my head for a week!
The other areas are; Engage and Impact
Impact is the schools work we do. Currently I go in on Tuesdays and do teacher support in RE lessons, but also go to the Eucharist and we shall be developing a lunch time club.
And Engage is the Work I do with my Church Placement. This is a Church called Eltham Green Church. Which is a ermm free evangelical and I work with their Junior Church Programme which is under 11s also.
There are also other programmes we help with ; Including an event called Fusion, which is lots of games food and a God slot which I thoroughly enjoyed as in combined some of my favorite things! There is also a children's club and an event called No compromise and the list of stuff is growing!!
For the first few weeks I lived with a lovely couple called Leslie and Elizabeth and now I have moved to live above the church for a month.
Thank-you so much those who have contributed to me financially it has been such a blessing and it has been absolutely amazing to see your generosity. Also thank you for those who have kept me in your prayers, a lot have been answered and I hope you can keep me there. Cheers for reading and God Bless, Lorna x
October 11th, 2006
Turned on the telly today to find out the time, and to buy and not to buy was on. They were in chippenham! My goodness chippenham is so much prettier than here, I think that London isnt that attractive even Blackheath hasnt got the beauty of chippenham, So there! Ahem less of the bigging up of chippenham prehaps. Today is such a hard day *ahem* Bowling is it? Ahh i could get used to this.
I'd been reading Genesis recently and Abraham and the idea of Faith. Even though im here im so lacking of realising that God has a promise for me, ones that are in the Bible things like 'In God all things are possible' So why am i trying to do it on my own strength? Promises that God will always Love me but usually forget that. Firstly I really want to be like Abraham because, he was told to go to somewhere where he would recieve his inheritence, he didnt know where that was but he still went!!
Abraham was told like 7 times before Issac was born that His ancestors would inherit the land and would be as numerous as the sand/stars. Yet didnt have faith that it would happen. At first i reckon he was well excited about this promise God had given him, but then he and sarah got older and older and Sarah was not the age to have children. They took it in their own hands rather having the patience to let God to his stuff. Ishmael was born, and Abraham thought for 13 years that promise would be through him but God said again to him through an angel with Sarah your ancestors will number the stars. Sarah laughed. I would have laughed. She was like a hundred. I mean we complain about elderly parents now! Nearly all the time i box him into the ways of the world. If in our power we cant do it then he cant do it. But meh of course he can, He created the world!! When people say you could lead a group, you could teach, you could do all these things, my lack of confidence and voices of past putdowns in my abilities rise up and stop me. That happening very very nearly stopped me coming here.
We need to look back and promises and be so joyful when they are fulfilled. Like when I was 16 someone prayed over me that my laughter and smile would be seen by everyone and bring people to Jesus. I was in depressed teenager mode at the time and hated to smeile. But now when ever someone has to write those encouragement more often than not my smile is mentioned, and that reminds me of that promise and it wasnt a random prayer that didnt apply to me.
When Issac was born it must have been amazing. But then God said give him up, sacrifice him to me. Now so often i have been taught that this is Abraham showing how much faith and love he had for God by giving his son up. He wasn't giving him up!! Abraham demonstrated UNBELIEVABLE faith in Gods promise that his inheritence was through Issac. Its all in Hebrews 11 v 8-19. but in verse 17-19 it says By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Issac as a sacrifice. He who had recieved the promises was about to sacrifice his one and onlu son. even though God has said to him, it is through Issac that your offspring will be reckoned, Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuritively speaking he did recieve Issac back from death.
Abraham had finally got it!! He gets that God fulfills his promise and if God is going to have him kill his son then he will come back, because of the promise He had made to him. I dont think I could have that much confidence, i pray that one day i will but that doubt will always come into your mind what if he isnt all good and this is his final trick. But I love that Abraham just did it. He wasnt giving up Issac as a sacrifice to God he was saying God i trust you so much to let you do this to my son because i Love you and trust in you promises to bring him back. Thats faith!!
I also love how throughout Genesis there are little glimpses to what will happen with Jesus. It was planned as far back as Genesis 3 and you just have to read through out the bible to see more and more comparisions.
I love Abrahams faith and I so So pray that i can show the smallest example of that kind of faith because as the well known kids song (and i think verse meh ah well) goes faith as small as a mustard seed,will move moutains, move mountains. (im not do the actions - honestly)
Sorry a bit of a ramble but i like to think about these things and its my blog MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA>
I'd been reading Genesis recently and Abraham and the idea of Faith. Even though im here im so lacking of realising that God has a promise for me, ones that are in the Bible things like 'In God all things are possible' So why am i trying to do it on my own strength? Promises that God will always Love me but usually forget that. Firstly I really want to be like Abraham because, he was told to go to somewhere where he would recieve his inheritence, he didnt know where that was but he still went!!
Abraham was told like 7 times before Issac was born that His ancestors would inherit the land and would be as numerous as the sand/stars. Yet didnt have faith that it would happen. At first i reckon he was well excited about this promise God had given him, but then he and sarah got older and older and Sarah was not the age to have children. They took it in their own hands rather having the patience to let God to his stuff. Ishmael was born, and Abraham thought for 13 years that promise would be through him but God said again to him through an angel with Sarah your ancestors will number the stars. Sarah laughed. I would have laughed. She was like a hundred. I mean we complain about elderly parents now! Nearly all the time i box him into the ways of the world. If in our power we cant do it then he cant do it. But meh of course he can, He created the world!! When people say you could lead a group, you could teach, you could do all these things, my lack of confidence and voices of past putdowns in my abilities rise up and stop me. That happening very very nearly stopped me coming here.
We need to look back and promises and be so joyful when they are fulfilled. Like when I was 16 someone prayed over me that my laughter and smile would be seen by everyone and bring people to Jesus. I was in depressed teenager mode at the time and hated to smeile. But now when ever someone has to write those encouragement more often than not my smile is mentioned, and that reminds me of that promise and it wasnt a random prayer that didnt apply to me.
When Issac was born it must have been amazing. But then God said give him up, sacrifice him to me. Now so often i have been taught that this is Abraham showing how much faith and love he had for God by giving his son up. He wasn't giving him up!! Abraham demonstrated UNBELIEVABLE faith in Gods promise that his inheritence was through Issac. Its all in Hebrews 11 v 8-19. but in verse 17-19 it says By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Issac as a sacrifice. He who had recieved the promises was about to sacrifice his one and onlu son. even though God has said to him, it is through Issac that your offspring will be reckoned, Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuritively speaking he did recieve Issac back from death.
Abraham had finally got it!! He gets that God fulfills his promise and if God is going to have him kill his son then he will come back, because of the promise He had made to him. I dont think I could have that much confidence, i pray that one day i will but that doubt will always come into your mind what if he isnt all good and this is his final trick. But I love that Abraham just did it. He wasnt giving up Issac as a sacrifice to God he was saying God i trust you so much to let you do this to my son because i Love you and trust in you promises to bring him back. Thats faith!!
I also love how throughout Genesis there are little glimpses to what will happen with Jesus. It was planned as far back as Genesis 3 and you just have to read through out the bible to see more and more comparisions.
I love Abrahams faith and I so So pray that i can show the smallest example of that kind of faith because as the well known kids song (and i think verse meh ah well) goes faith as small as a mustard seed,will move moutains, move mountains. (im not do the actions - honestly)
Sorry a bit of a ramble but i like to think about these things and its my blog MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA>
October 9th, 2006
Did you know its really easy to get lost in Primark? Oh thats just me then.
People keep going shopping and asking me to come. I think I need to be like Joseph and run away from temptation or i will spend money thats not mine.
Well things have gotten so much better and i really enjoying it now. I am living above the church at the moment in a flat with a lovely couple well I say flat im outside it in a guest room but lovely all the same. I'll be there about a month so who knows where i will be after that.
The church is great, really ncie people, though i havn't done junior church and the more its put off the more i dont want to as the thought of it makes me more want a youth group and not this. But meh god knows what hes doing. At least i get to do this group on fridays.
Already been thinking about what i can do next year which is silly but needs thinking about, its hard as everything is so expensive!!! so who knows what ill end up doing maybe macdonalds for all i know!!
Rock solid is quite scary still but we're going bowling on wednesday so maybe ill get to know them a bit better.
People keep going shopping and asking me to come. I think I need to be like Joseph and run away from temptation or i will spend money thats not mine.
Well things have gotten so much better and i really enjoying it now. I am living above the church at the moment in a flat with a lovely couple well I say flat im outside it in a guest room but lovely all the same. I'll be there about a month so who knows where i will be after that.
The church is great, really ncie people, though i havn't done junior church and the more its put off the more i dont want to as the thought of it makes me more want a youth group and not this. But meh god knows what hes doing. At least i get to do this group on fridays.
Already been thinking about what i can do next year which is silly but needs thinking about, its hard as everything is so expensive!!! so who knows what ill end up doing maybe macdonalds for all i know!!
Rock solid is quite scary still but we're going bowling on wednesday so maybe ill get to know them a bit better.
September 28th, 2006
Well Im sat in the office (ooo how posh) waiting to pray.
Things have been good. Charlie and I have done a few touristy things. On friday we went to oxford street (the shops were so repetitive it was like scooby doo) was fun and the tubes werent that busy so i didnt freak out. But it did take an hour on the bus to get in.
On Tuesday, after being at the school we decided to take the DLR (docland light rail oooo) to canary wharf as apparrently it was nice. Thank goodness we were still in posh clothes from the school otherwise we would have looked well out of place!! There was far too many escalators (haha charlie tried to do what many have tried and failed to do before her and get me down an escalater hmm naive child :P) We gave up and went to lewisham instead which has a few good shops. Got a bag from TK maxx only to find a much nicer one as cheap the next day I was gutted!!!
So there is our days off excitedment
Things have been good. Charlie and I have done a few touristy things. On friday we went to oxford street (the shops were so repetitive it was like scooby doo) was fun and the tubes werent that busy so i didnt freak out. But it did take an hour on the bus to get in.
On Tuesday, after being at the school we decided to take the DLR (docland light rail oooo) to canary wharf as apparrently it was nice. Thank goodness we were still in posh clothes from the school otherwise we would have looked well out of place!! There was far too many escalators (haha charlie tried to do what many have tried and failed to do before her and get me down an escalater hmm naive child :P) We gave up and went to lewisham instead which has a few good shops. Got a bag from TK maxx only to find a much nicer one as cheap the next day I was gutted!!!
So there is our days off excitedment
September 26th, 2006
Ok, So i have now been here a week andddd 3 days. Exciting.
So greenwich yfc. Pretty good though its alot to get used to!! I am currently living with an elderly couple called Lesley and Elizabeth as my church can't currently find me somewhere to live. This is ermm scary but hey Gods got control (something im having to accept more and more!!) The office is lovely and the people are great!!
I do quite alot of different stuff and i think the worrd manic describes this well.
I work in a rough estate called the Ferrier which isnt the prettiest in the world. I did a drop-in there last week which was interesting. There are some nice kids but also some scary kids. But it was alright. I defended a girl so i got some of the older kids abuse but there we go - only been there once. Also theres rock solid and a thing called superkidz. An event on saturdays for littleones. Theres a song called Okey Dokey which is far too catchy and i have had in my head for days - i might cry.
I also do church stuff and events. I havnt been too involved with my church yet. I went to the service yesterday but being on true Lorna form i went too far on the bus and was half an hour late. I will be helping with their juniour church (5-11 - arggghh) this year is really testing how good my childrens work is because i find it very hard! hopefully i can try and getinvoved with the youth group as well.
I went into a school today and did some support work with the re department which was interesting. Some good kids (year7s are so much taller than my day) and i could also be doing yr 8s and 10s.
I have met such nice people. Charlies great and so is the others involved in GYFC.
We went on a retreat day and spent it with some nuns!! was awesome. Ok so we didnt spend it with the nuns we were in a nunary/abbey in kent. WAs so chilled out. and really enjoyed getting to know people. We also took some time out with God and God just told me to be more faithful which is why this entry is more positive than it could have been!!!
Well ill update again some time soon.
So greenwich yfc. Pretty good though its alot to get used to!! I am currently living with an elderly couple called Lesley and Elizabeth as my church can't currently find me somewhere to live. This is ermm scary but hey Gods got control (something im having to accept more and more!!) The office is lovely and the people are great!!
I do quite alot of different stuff and i think the worrd manic describes this well.
I work in a rough estate called the Ferrier which isnt the prettiest in the world. I did a drop-in there last week which was interesting. There are some nice kids but also some scary kids. But it was alright. I defended a girl so i got some of the older kids abuse but there we go - only been there once. Also theres rock solid and a thing called superkidz. An event on saturdays for littleones. Theres a song called Okey Dokey which is far too catchy and i have had in my head for days - i might cry.
I also do church stuff and events. I havnt been too involved with my church yet. I went to the service yesterday but being on true Lorna form i went too far on the bus and was half an hour late. I will be helping with their juniour church (5-11 - arggghh) this year is really testing how good my childrens work is because i find it very hard! hopefully i can try and getinvoved with the youth group as well.
I went into a school today and did some support work with the re department which was interesting. Some good kids (year7s are so much taller than my day) and i could also be doing yr 8s and 10s.
I have met such nice people. Charlies great and so is the others involved in GYFC.
We went on a retreat day and spent it with some nuns!! was awesome. Ok so we didnt spend it with the nuns we were in a nunary/abbey in kent. WAs so chilled out. and really enjoyed getting to know people. We also took some time out with God and God just told me to be more faithful which is why this entry is more positive than it could have been!!!
Well ill update again some time soon.
September 11th, 2006
Ok So now im going with Charlie this year. Should be good though still dont know which church or host home om going to. Training finishes in 2 days and then sat am off to greenwich - scary. Cheers to anyone who has been praying for me as God has done some amazing things so thankyou!!!
September 2nd, 2006
Well its day 4 and things have been crazy.
Well there are some really nice people here and its been really amazing. Im currently at woscester uni. The rooms are um bare to say the least but its a nice set up. We've been having really intense days, alot of teaching that has been challenging and I think quite integral to know for next year which is always dandy. Things like theology of the trinity, integrity, Theology of prayer, missiology etc etc.
Tea is once again fueling my life and im enjoying every minute of that.
We've been bowling and I lost....twice...with the bumpers. I blame the toe not my poor skills.
Have also been to woscester which had some really good shops. I fought against temptation and did not buy anything!!! I say a woot. Evenings have been chilled and good to get to know people. We played Mao which was sooo funny probably funnier than when at camp. And theres been many a singaong (sorry this quite a boring account but meh there we go) There are SO MANY scottish people here, i almost feel a minority i got stuck in a room full of about 8 scottish people and the only english one... It strained my translations skills i can say that. But is really nice to meet so many people, doing other programmes next year.
Another major thing that has happened is I was prayed for last night, praying for the emotional wounds etc and the person prayed for me really spoke into my situation and said that God is taking th eloa doff my back. Afterwards i was walking back to my room i realise i was walking with my normal hunched shoulders that kills my back but with a straight posture which is amazing like i wasnt carring all the baggage. Twas brilliant. But i am now late for a meeting and i will have to make tea and coffee so yea bye.,
Well there are some really nice people here and its been really amazing. Im currently at woscester uni. The rooms are um bare to say the least but its a nice set up. We've been having really intense days, alot of teaching that has been challenging and I think quite integral to know for next year which is always dandy. Things like theology of the trinity, integrity, Theology of prayer, missiology etc etc.
Tea is once again fueling my life and im enjoying every minute of that.
We've been bowling and I lost....twice...with the bumpers. I blame the toe not my poor skills.
Have also been to woscester which had some really good shops. I fought against temptation and did not buy anything!!! I say a woot. Evenings have been chilled and good to get to know people. We played Mao which was sooo funny probably funnier than when at camp. And theres been many a singaong (sorry this quite a boring account but meh there we go) There are SO MANY scottish people here, i almost feel a minority i got stuck in a room full of about 8 scottish people and the only english one... It strained my translations skills i can say that. But is really nice to meet so many people, doing other programmes next year.
Another major thing that has happened is I was prayed for last night, praying for the emotional wounds etc and the person prayed for me really spoke into my situation and said that God is taking th eloa doff my back. Afterwards i was walking back to my room i realise i was walking with my normal hunched shoulders that kills my back but with a straight posture which is amazing like i wasnt carring all the baggage. Twas brilliant. But i am now late for a meeting and i will have to make tea and coffee so yea bye.,
August 30th, 2006
Well first morning....something nice and gentle to ease you in at 9 in the morning? Theology of the trinity? ah ok..... brain is now seeping out of my ears.
August 26th, 2006
People usually say to me 'It could only happen to you' Usually I think well thats a bit harsh. These things probably happen to lots of people, just maybe not so often. But after today, I now agree.
So Today i was say in my living room, having a lazy day reading a book in my pyjamas, eating sausages. My cats come running into the living room cahsing what at first i thought was a large moth then thought was a bird and soon discovered was a bat. A bat in my house!! It kept flying around my head a little freaky. After talking to mum and trying to find it again I saw that, Bob had caught it. He was still alive (Jaye called him barry) So i chased bob away and bob eventually let him go in the garden. I got Bob away and shut him in the office. I then went looking for bungle who, not as bloodthirst as bob would still go for the bat. Bungle got away from me as i went to put him in the office and ran outside. As i ran for him coming out of the conservatory, I tripped over a hose reel smashing into the concrete, hurting my toes and my knee and quite a fw grazes. However as i tripped up the conservatory door broke shut so i could no longer get into the house. I was outside in my pyjams bare footed, no keys, it was raining and i had an injured bat to deal with an a cat who was really interested. I talked to mum and after many attempts to get into the house gave up. I was sitting on the hamock thinking how to get barry the bat next door, (they like to rescue animals. we've taken birds there before) When the bloody thing just flew away. So im outside in my pyjams its now half 3 in the afternoon, i can barely walk i have no shoes on in an overgrown garden with no idea what resides there or what my cat has left.
Eventually my mums friend let me in and now im hobbling like a limpy thing.
So yes, for most people they would of helped the bat, all would be hunkydory. For me no. Why can i not do things by halves. Ah well i suppose it makes good stories.
So Today i was say in my living room, having a lazy day reading a book in my pyjamas, eating sausages. My cats come running into the living room cahsing what at first i thought was a large moth then thought was a bird and soon discovered was a bat. A bat in my house!! It kept flying around my head a little freaky. After talking to mum and trying to find it again I saw that, Bob had caught it. He was still alive (Jaye called him barry) So i chased bob away and bob eventually let him go in the garden. I got Bob away and shut him in the office. I then went looking for bungle who, not as bloodthirst as bob would still go for the bat. Bungle got away from me as i went to put him in the office and ran outside. As i ran for him coming out of the conservatory, I tripped over a hose reel smashing into the concrete, hurting my toes and my knee and quite a fw grazes. However as i tripped up the conservatory door broke shut so i could no longer get into the house. I was outside in my pyjams bare footed, no keys, it was raining and i had an injured bat to deal with an a cat who was really interested. I talked to mum and after many attempts to get into the house gave up. I was sitting on the hamock thinking how to get barry the bat next door, (they like to rescue animals. we've taken birds there before) When the bloody thing just flew away. So im outside in my pyjams its now half 3 in the afternoon, i can barely walk i have no shoes on in an overgrown garden with no idea what resides there or what my cat has left.
Eventually my mums friend let me in and now im hobbling like a limpy thing.
So yes, for most people they would of helped the bat, all would be hunkydory. For me no. Why can i not do things by halves. Ah well i suppose it makes good stories.
soreAugust 17th, 2006
Because i cant be arsed to write a long rambled entry on camp i shall write a list of a few things that happened so i dont forget as im good at that.
- Not sleeping a under a desk!
- Seeing Jo for the first time in a year
- Lovely car journenys with Lucy
- Libby my co leader and my team the slytheens (from doctor who, the monsters who pretend to be mps. Quite funnya s libby works for the house of parliament)
- My team - awesome
- The food!!! Oh how to describe the food i cant it was too good
- Encouragement envelopes
- Daniel
- Team mascot - haha the funniest thing ive seen.
- Being painted on my arms byt emily
- Not freaking out about having paint on my arms (im growing!!)
- Putting a hand print on emilys face (a precdent started here and continued throughout the week between us)
- Photos (UGLY)
- Dressing up The most awesomest wig - EVER!!! Others looked pretty awesome to the scariest probaly benin his tight suit he looked like a computer character with his face smosshed like that
- Getting to know new people
- Frickett/crisbee
- 'DOnt touch my stick!!'
- Pushed into the pool fully clothed wearing VERY inappropriate clothing for such an event to happen
- The beach
- Hot girls
- Sun buuurn!
- PUSHED INTO THE TERRAPIN POOL - man i smelt
-Attempts to revenge my self at anna it didnt work resulted in her getting in stress as so many tried to help me
- Corey breaking his collar bone - the first chippenham person to be injured and go to hosiptal
- gettig laughs at a leaders meeting (i love that haha )
- Being at a leaders meeting on time! woah! twas weird
- Lorna you shall be doing sports all day - What!!
-The best quiet time ever was amazing to listen to them being challenged
- Kick rounder- hmm terrible, Boucy ballness - hmm terrible This cool basketball game - who rules oh yes that would be me
- Messing up the girls hair resulting in a girl taking fun mean to a new leavel and me wanting to punch her with a lil bit of prayer it was resolved
- Fake wrestling on a trampoline that as a bad leader allowed to happen resulting in the second chippenham person to be injured and get kicked in the face oh he also broke his wrist i had to clear him up - twas fun oh and there were no first aiders on site - also fun!!
- The band Dwell, watching the kids have an awesome time and worshipping was great. Listing to my team as well say how much they enjoye dit also was brilliant
- So much a for a few only about to start wednesday
- Crabbing - I caught 4. Ned the tiniest crab caught, Charlie a regular sized crab, Crabmeister general the biggest crab caught and The one that got away Twice the size of the the crab meister and took all my bacon i call him Moby crab.
- Standing OUTSIDE the pool area, mobbed by about 10 boys on andys comman. I put up a good fight clinging to the bars. Unfortunately i got very wet. and had jeans on sank quite a bit. Walking back i couldnt pull them up thankfully i had girl boxers on so hada bit of a boys underwear moment,.
- The funniest sufa and anna got got so i was happy Gunge tank!!
- Duty!! Awesome i had responsability which ben and hanna and judith didnt get i dont know why i like this but wooot!!! i got to tell kids off and be all scary that they should go to sleep yay!!!
- Maoooooooo an amazing card game
- Go ape the scariest experience of my like on those tarzan swings as i had a dodgy harness but thankfully they got rid of the other obstacles that haunted my dreams. Harness brusies! After the traumatic experience i was ill for most of the day feeling like i had no weight.
- Paaartaaay. A partly to celebrate 10 years of due south was really nice. Though there was beer and champagne and some of the younger ones didnt know the limit and got wasted. was funny.
- Camp romance oooerrr haha first due south wedding?
- My team making up a romance between libby and aiden libby not being to happy with this " Aiden would you like to come to breakfast on friday?" " Yea whats teh theme?" "Win a date with libby" How should i dress?" "Romantically"
Then the awesome plan that the cooks came in with spaghetti and meatballs to the tune from lady and the tramp was so funny. My best prank yet (doesnt say much for my pranks but there we go)
- Shopping ALLLL day -only spent £2 get me!!
- Tims trousers and his undergamrnets being completely pulled down SOOOOO glad i had just left to go to the pub.
- The buttttery
- Being told that a person on my team didnt like me at first as she thought i was a 'bod' cos i had messy hair (it was curly!!!) but im cool now and telling laura she thought she was 'self obsessed' at first as its the pretty ones you have to look out for!! got to love judgement.
- The funniest pictures ever
- The space jam - The most cringeworthy performance ever only made slightly less tearful because of my awesome jumps.
- The last sufa
- The last goodnightness with my team twas rather funny
- leaving the meeting quietly falling over and half exposing to the world embarrassing i think so!!
- MATRESS SURFING down the massive wooden stairs was soooo much fun!!
- Final goodbye jennies birthday and cake up my nose bleugh
- Good bye duesouth!!
- Not sleeping a under a desk!
- Seeing Jo for the first time in a year
- Lovely car journenys with Lucy
- Libby my co leader and my team the slytheens (from doctor who, the monsters who pretend to be mps. Quite funnya s libby works for the house of parliament)
- My team - awesome
- The food!!! Oh how to describe the food i cant it was too good
- Encouragement envelopes
- Daniel
- Team mascot - haha the funniest thing ive seen.
- Being painted on my arms byt emily
- Not freaking out about having paint on my arms (im growing!!)
- Putting a hand print on emilys face (a precdent started here and continued throughout the week between us)
- Photos (UGLY)
- Dressing up The most awesomest wig - EVER!!! Others looked pretty awesome to the scariest probaly benin his tight suit he looked like a computer character with his face smosshed like that
- Getting to know new people
- Frickett/crisbee
- 'DOnt touch my stick!!'
- Pushed into the pool fully clothed wearing VERY inappropriate clothing for such an event to happen
- The beach
- Hot girls
- Sun buuurn!
- PUSHED INTO THE TERRAPIN POOL - man i smelt
-Attempts to revenge my self at anna it didnt work resulted in her getting in stress as so many tried to help me
- Corey breaking his collar bone - the first chippenham person to be injured and go to hosiptal
- gettig laughs at a leaders meeting (i love that haha )
- Being at a leaders meeting on time! woah! twas weird
- Lorna you shall be doing sports all day - What!!
-The best quiet time ever was amazing to listen to them being challenged
- Kick rounder- hmm terrible, Boucy ballness - hmm terrible This cool basketball game - who rules oh yes that would be me
- Messing up the girls hair resulting in a girl taking fun mean to a new leavel and me wanting to punch her with a lil bit of prayer it was resolved
- Fake wrestling on a trampoline that as a bad leader allowed to happen resulting in the second chippenham person to be injured and get kicked in the face oh he also broke his wrist i had to clear him up - twas fun oh and there were no first aiders on site - also fun!!
- The band Dwell, watching the kids have an awesome time and worshipping was great. Listing to my team as well say how much they enjoye dit also was brilliant
- So much a for a few only about to start wednesday
- Crabbing - I caught 4. Ned the tiniest crab caught, Charlie a regular sized crab, Crabmeister general the biggest crab caught and The one that got away Twice the size of the the crab meister and took all my bacon i call him Moby crab.
- Standing OUTSIDE the pool area, mobbed by about 10 boys on andys comman. I put up a good fight clinging to the bars. Unfortunately i got very wet. and had jeans on sank quite a bit. Walking back i couldnt pull them up thankfully i had girl boxers on so hada bit of a boys underwear moment,.
- The funniest sufa and anna got got so i was happy Gunge tank!!
- Duty!! Awesome i had responsability which ben and hanna and judith didnt get i dont know why i like this but wooot!!! i got to tell kids off and be all scary that they should go to sleep yay!!!
- Maoooooooo an amazing card game
- Go ape the scariest experience of my like on those tarzan swings as i had a dodgy harness but thankfully they got rid of the other obstacles that haunted my dreams. Harness brusies! After the traumatic experience i was ill for most of the day feeling like i had no weight.
- Paaartaaay. A partly to celebrate 10 years of due south was really nice. Though there was beer and champagne and some of the younger ones didnt know the limit and got wasted. was funny.
- Camp romance oooerrr haha first due south wedding?
- My team making up a romance between libby and aiden libby not being to happy with this " Aiden would you like to come to breakfast on friday?" " Yea whats teh theme?" "Win a date with libby" How should i dress?" "Romantically"
Then the awesome plan that the cooks came in with spaghetti and meatballs to the tune from lady and the tramp was so funny. My best prank yet (doesnt say much for my pranks but there we go)
- Shopping ALLLL day -only spent £2 get me!!
- Tims trousers and his undergamrnets being completely pulled down SOOOOO glad i had just left to go to the pub.
- The buttttery
- Being told that a person on my team didnt like me at first as she thought i was a 'bod' cos i had messy hair (it was curly!!!) but im cool now and telling laura she thought she was 'self obsessed' at first as its the pretty ones you have to look out for!! got to love judgement.
- The funniest pictures ever
- The space jam - The most cringeworthy performance ever only made slightly less tearful because of my awesome jumps.
- The last sufa
- The last goodnightness with my team twas rather funny
- leaving the meeting quietly falling over and half exposing to the world embarrassing i think so!!
- MATRESS SURFING down the massive wooden stairs was soooo much fun!!
- Final goodbye jennies birthday and cake up my nose bleugh
- Good bye duesouth!!
July 27th, 2006
Now have the transformers Theme tune in my head (transformers robots in disguise hum dehum hummmddee)
Well Have been doing love bristol for the last few days. I have a grey tshirt - indicated i am far significantly greater than those in the red tshirts. I go around the projects holding my microphone making it clear that I am no delegate but important. (They wont let me have a red tshirt - i want to be a mass i doo! - wait.)
Has been a great few days and really good to see what people are doing for south bristol and bringing god in practical ways. I will actually being of what i beleive to be more use when ima steward.
I have an all access areas pass - does that include areas such as the top of the big top?
Not that i can get there....well saying that I could fashion a large elastic band and two poles.......
July 13th, 2006
Usually i dont remember my dreams, but in the last few days... in that half hour, where i know i should be awake but instead enjoy the comfy feeling where my bed wont realease me, I have had some BIZZARE dreams. No not as bizzare as the muppet dream (could it be?) but strange none the less.
One was my cousin trying to kill me with a spell that was written on this necklace which had loads of chinese symbols on, i tried to have a bath but he wouldnt leave. Later on we made up and he said he wouldnt kill me then someone shouted up saying 'dont forget your discs.' next thing i know im being hit by a tranqueliser dart and am waking up walking o ut of my work building with loads of other people. Turns out the government was looking for sue who i work for but they dont knwo where she is so they took us and her actual whereabouts were on those discs. Irene another woman i work with started tutting about how the government was going downhill.
The next dream Was harrypotter esque and i cant remember a huge amount about but voldemort was trying to convince me (as harry) that the prophecy would keep him alive and that he should cheat death using a patronus as long as i sign a piece of paper. That was on a bridge... I ended up in a supermarket making bottle of drink explode with my spells
Todays dream scared the crap out of me. I was moving back home and as i was shifting boxes i find a cockroach. Its scary and i dont want to squish it because little baby cockroaches would come out.I hate my house at home because its so hot there are big bugs all the time. As i turn round to call mum to shout at her because my house was too cold to have big bugs, i am faced by a big ass Cockrach hovering behind me. It was bigger than me and then started chasing me and mum. As i said - scared the crap out of me!!!
So any opinions on what they could mean? hahaha
One was my cousin trying to kill me with a spell that was written on this necklace which had loads of chinese symbols on, i tried to have a bath but he wouldnt leave. Later on we made up and he said he wouldnt kill me then someone shouted up saying 'dont forget your discs.' next thing i know im being hit by a tranqueliser dart and am waking up walking o ut of my work building with loads of other people. Turns out the government was looking for sue who i work for but they dont knwo where she is so they took us and her actual whereabouts were on those discs. Irene another woman i work with started tutting about how the government was going downhill.
The next dream Was harrypotter esque and i cant remember a huge amount about but voldemort was trying to convince me (as harry) that the prophecy would keep him alive and that he should cheat death using a patronus as long as i sign a piece of paper. That was on a bridge... I ended up in a supermarket making bottle of drink explode with my spells
Todays dream scared the crap out of me. I was moving back home and as i was shifting boxes i find a cockroach. Its scary and i dont want to squish it because little baby cockroaches would come out.I hate my house at home because its so hot there are big bugs all the time. As i turn round to call mum to shout at her because my house was too cold to have big bugs, i am faced by a big ass Cockrach hovering behind me. It was bigger than me and then started chasing me and mum. As i said - scared the crap out of me!!!
So any opinions on what they could mean? hahaha
July 11th, 2006
After reading ablog about communion. it made me think about how i approach it. Rather than, ah im eating what reminds me of what God did for me i think...Ah today the lord tastes of kingsmill.....or as it was sunday.....ah today the lord tastes of sholer...red grape if im not mistaken.
July 7th, 2006
Innocently, i quenched my thirst with a drink of oasis.... mid drinking something jumped out at orlando bloom. I advise you now to not inhale and choke on oasis while jumping.
In other happiness, im going to be one of those who dod the filming for love bristol (woot!) this is brilliant and so glad i can do this for portfolios and experience etc... but im worried ill be rubbish... but there we go. yaaay. Does mean im def doing love bristol and need somewhere to stay any offers?
In other happiness, im going to be one of those who dod the filming for love bristol (woot!) this is brilliant and so glad i can do this for portfolios and experience etc... but im worried ill be rubbish... but there we go. yaaay. Does mean im def doing love bristol and need somewhere to stay any offers?
Ok after being inspired... things I want to do before I die, in no paticular order;
1. Buy a really expensive item of clothes
2. Have my own house and have one room painted pink
3. Grow my own vegetables
4. Go Skiing
5. Go to New Zealand
6. Own the complete collection of Mr Men
7. Watch all 3 extended editions of lord of the rings in one day.
8. Read the whole bible
9. Owned a Morris minor or hippy wagon or aston
10. Go to New York at christmas
11. See a rangers or knicks game in madison square gardens
12. See every Lloyd webber musical still on stage
13. See Niagra falls
14. Sail a boat
15. Go in a hot air ballon
16. Steal a big sign
17. Invent something
18. Have breakfast in a french cafe in paris
19. Drive to venice and go on a Gondola
20. Go to Auschwitz
21. Get married and have children
22. Have a massive tree house
23. Buy a cheesy fitness video
24. actually use it
25. Go to Hogmanay
26. Organise a youth event and see loads of young people come to God
27. Be competant at an instrument
28. Complete mine and tiffs list to steal heavy machinary - gone in 60 seconds stylee
29. Make a film
30. Own a sweet shop
31. Have a car pimped up like an animal
32. Drink lots of red bull and see what happens
33. Build a massive fort
34. Have a bounccey castle
35. Build a hovercraft
36. Make a bomb (small one of course i just like things to go kablooey)
37. Be tidy
38. travel the continent
39. Starting at chippenham go on the first train that arrives and travel the country by this method. (must be rich to do this)
40. Go on a mission trip to Rwanda
41. Go to the olympics
42. pull the ultimate prank
43. Play a board game that lasts a weekend
44. Be sent flowers
45. Live my whole life for God
46. Be a prayer warrior
47. Have a record player and buy lots of vinyls
48. Be thinner
49. To have had my hair many different colours.
50. Go to Brazil
51. Fulfll all promises to God
52. cook all the recipe in a cookery book
53. Have all my kids friends always around
54. go down niagra falls in a barrel ( how i plan to go)
55. Go around in a granny mobile and terrorise young children
56. Go see an England Rugby match
57. See a Bath Rugby match
59. break a bone
60. have a pirate/viking party
61. To have someone throw me a surprise party
62. For it to be a surprise
63. To see everyone clsoe to me come to God and see them in heaven (ok thats after i die)
64. write a book
65. Paint a painting and sell it
67. have a job in a music venue
68. See all my favourite bands live
69. Own all my favourite DVDs
70. Go native
71. Go on Safari
72. go sleding
73. Live in a snowy country
74. write and give a sermon
75. build some sort of medieval siege weapon
76. Buy something at Harrods
77. Grow my hair really long
78. Go on the trans-siberian railway
79. Go to a non euro country and buy lots of cheap tack
80. Build a snow-fort
81. Build a tree fort
82. build a raft
83. Go white water rafting
84. Go diving on the great barrier reef
85. Dress someone up as david bowie circa labryinth and/or a smurf
86. go to lots of fancy dress parties
87. Own Clogs
88. Be a church leader
89. drink a whole bottle of wine to myself
90. Knit a jumper
91. Have climbed a 5c/6a
92. Go Fishing
93. Stay in a 5* hotel
94. Spend a whole day where Tim has to tell me what to do
95. Be in a play
96. Act in a telelvision programme
97. Spend a whole normal day in a sleeping bag
98. Learn the whole rap to fresh princce of bel air
99. Write a song
100. Remember my song about balding trolls
101. Play in snow on a beach
102. Have all my photos in albums
103. take more photos
104. Be in a band
105. Buy the complete tescos value range
106. Have a walk in wardrobe
107. Have a very impressive dvd collection (already quite big - draining on the bank account though)
108. Be able to morris dance
109. Take a picture and get £200 for it in heat
110. Make a dalek (very extenisve directions on internet)
111. Be a pirate
112. Learn first aid
113. SAve someones life (well yo never know!!)
114. Swim a mile
115. Travel across america
116. Make a clothing line out of carrier bags
117. Visited every county in uk
ill finish this later - i have brain block!!
1. Buy a really expensive item of clothes
2. Have my own house and have one room painted pink
3. Grow my own vegetables
4. Go Skiing
5. Go to New Zealand
6. Own the complete collection of Mr Men
7. Watch all 3 extended editions of lord of the rings in one day.
8. Read the whole bible
9. Owned a Morris minor or hippy wagon or aston
10. Go to New York at christmas
11. See a rangers or knicks game in madison square gardens
12. See every Lloyd webber musical still on stage
13. See Niagra falls
14. Sail a boat
15. Go in a hot air ballon
16. Steal a big sign
17. Invent something
18. Have breakfast in a french cafe in paris
19. Drive to venice and go on a Gondola
20. Go to Auschwitz
21. Get married and have children
22. Have a massive tree house
23. Buy a cheesy fitness video
24. actually use it
25. Go to Hogmanay
26. Organise a youth event and see loads of young people come to God
27. Be competant at an instrument
28. Complete mine and tiffs list to steal heavy machinary - gone in 60 seconds stylee
29. Make a film
30. Own a sweet shop
31. Have a car pimped up like an animal
32. Drink lots of red bull and see what happens
33. Build a massive fort
34. Have a bounccey castle
35. Build a hovercraft
36. Make a bomb (small one of course i just like things to go kablooey)
37. Be tidy
38. travel the continent
39. Starting at chippenham go on the first train that arrives and travel the country by this method. (must be rich to do this)
40. Go on a mission trip to Rwanda
41. Go to the olympics
42. pull the ultimate prank
43. Play a board game that lasts a weekend
44. Be sent flowers
45. Live my whole life for God
46. Be a prayer warrior
47. Have a record player and buy lots of vinyls
48. Be thinner
49. To have had my hair many different colours.
50. Go to Brazil
51. Fulfll all promises to God
52. cook all the recipe in a cookery book
53. Have all my kids friends always around
54. go down niagra falls in a barrel ( how i plan to go)
55. Go around in a granny mobile and terrorise young children
56. Go see an England Rugby match
57. See a Bath Rugby match
59. break a bone
60. have a pirate/viking party
61. To have someone throw me a surprise party
62. For it to be a surprise
63. To see everyone clsoe to me come to God and see them in heaven (ok thats after i die)
64. write a book
65. Paint a painting and sell it
67. have a job in a music venue
68. See all my favourite bands live
69. Own all my favourite DVDs
70. Go native
71. Go on Safari
72. go sleding
73. Live in a snowy country
74. write and give a sermon
75. build some sort of medieval siege weapon
76. Buy something at Harrods
77. Grow my hair really long
78. Go on the trans-siberian railway
79. Go to a non euro country and buy lots of cheap tack
80. Build a snow-fort
81. Build a tree fort
82. build a raft
83. Go white water rafting
84. Go diving on the great barrier reef
85. Dress someone up as david bowie circa labryinth and/or a smurf
86. go to lots of fancy dress parties
87. Own Clogs
88. Be a church leader
89. drink a whole bottle of wine to myself
90. Knit a jumper
91. Have climbed a 5c/6a
92. Go Fishing
93. Stay in a 5* hotel
94. Spend a whole day where Tim has to tell me what to do
95. Be in a play
96. Act in a telelvision programme
97. Spend a whole normal day in a sleeping bag
98. Learn the whole rap to fresh princce of bel air
99. Write a song
100. Remember my song about balding trolls
101. Play in snow on a beach
102. Have all my photos in albums
103. take more photos
104. Be in a band
105. Buy the complete tescos value range
106. Have a walk in wardrobe
107. Have a very impressive dvd collection (already quite big - draining on the bank account though)
108. Be able to morris dance
109. Take a picture and get £200 for it in heat
110. Make a dalek (very extenisve directions on internet)
111. Be a pirate
112. Learn first aid
113. SAve someones life (well yo never know!!)
114. Swim a mile
115. Travel across america
116. Make a clothing line out of carrier bags
117. Visited every county in uk
ill finish this later - i have brain block!!
July 5th, 2006
If your running a race on your own. Is it really a race? Surely it is just a run.
When Paul said we are running a race i always see it as if it is we are in competiton with eachother which is obviously not true. I look to things like sports relief and race for life. Thats a race but there isnt a competiton factor against anyone its a personal feat, to reach a goal. But you are with others. Others are running, spurring you on. Races arent easy. But if there is someone encouraging you there always that extra spurt of morale. I know i can face my fears when im with someone (like escaltors on sunday - cheers jaye!) but on my own i can not bring myself to do it.
Its the same with being a christian. You can not run without support and encouragement, someone to run with. Or you are just running - not really sure where you're going. I beleive wholeheartidly that a major factor to backsliding in christianity is no support. no running buddy (accountability and just really good friend person thing) no cheering crowd (church congragation.)
Look to a typical family church. A married couple. In alot of situations does a friend go to the woman and the husband, or even them together and go so how is your marriage going? I've heard often well thats too personal you shouldnt ask. But how can anything make sense if we are not held accountable in what we do. Throughout the bible God speaks through his people and God speaks through people now in answers to prayers. I cant hear Gods voice unless its through someone else. Sometimes im talking to someone and giving advice and i know its not me speaking....
Accountability is sooo important and yet i hadn't even heard of it until i got to uni. Which is shocking. Granted you cant spill your problems to every christian you see but if a good friend asks you how you are tell them and they could help you. and vice versa!!
I know (apart from worries about next year which are dominant) I havnt really been able to speak to someone about stuff (maybe that why i use this blog to write my problems?)and ive slid so far back and i didnt even realise. The only times i could see was when a christian (and sometimes a non - christian ) friend has challenged me about stuff.
I've rambled a bit but seriously we should find someone that we can confide and be accountable to but also be that person for someone else, because that friend who might seem like everything is going perfectly well just needs someone to talk to.
That would lead nicley to when you say how are you, dont be surprised if you dont get just an ok back buuuuuut i wont.
When Paul said we are running a race i always see it as if it is we are in competiton with eachother which is obviously not true. I look to things like sports relief and race for life. Thats a race but there isnt a competiton factor against anyone its a personal feat, to reach a goal. But you are with others. Others are running, spurring you on. Races arent easy. But if there is someone encouraging you there always that extra spurt of morale. I know i can face my fears when im with someone (like escaltors on sunday - cheers jaye!) but on my own i can not bring myself to do it.
Its the same with being a christian. You can not run without support and encouragement, someone to run with. Or you are just running - not really sure where you're going. I beleive wholeheartidly that a major factor to backsliding in christianity is no support. no running buddy (accountability and just really good friend person thing) no cheering crowd (church congragation.)
Look to a typical family church. A married couple. In alot of situations does a friend go to the woman and the husband, or even them together and go so how is your marriage going? I've heard often well thats too personal you shouldnt ask. But how can anything make sense if we are not held accountable in what we do. Throughout the bible God speaks through his people and God speaks through people now in answers to prayers. I cant hear Gods voice unless its through someone else. Sometimes im talking to someone and giving advice and i know its not me speaking....
Accountability is sooo important and yet i hadn't even heard of it until i got to uni. Which is shocking. Granted you cant spill your problems to every christian you see but if a good friend asks you how you are tell them and they could help you. and vice versa!!
I know (apart from worries about next year which are dominant) I havnt really been able to speak to someone about stuff (maybe that why i use this blog to write my problems?)and ive slid so far back and i didnt even realise. The only times i could see was when a christian (and sometimes a non - christian ) friend has challenged me about stuff.
I've rambled a bit but seriously we should find someone that we can confide and be accountable to but also be that person for someone else, because that friend who might seem like everything is going perfectly well just needs someone to talk to.
That would lead nicley to when you say how are you, dont be surprised if you dont get just an ok back buuuuuut i wont.
June 30th, 2006
Well I had my interview for yfc. I hate motorways and who drive on it. I also hate the fact you have to concentrate more than on a normal road. But annyway was nice met nice people got a little nervous and stuttery as usual but there we go have to live with it. It made me quite excited about it again because i remembered why i wanted to do it in the first place so im less sure once again but i might not get in. We'll see what gods got in store really.